My Dear Friends Paul and Heather,
I have provided a complete “Check List” of what to do step-by-step to contact my family,
etc. But first, just take a deep breath and read this letter together and give yourselves a
few minutes to process this. I think this will make the most sense if you read this letter
first then go to the document titled “Check List” which will lead you through all the other
documents I have provided in a logical manner.
FIRST- Please, Please, Please DO NOT take on ANY guilt about my decision. As I will
explain below, it had ABSOLUTELY nothing to do with what you did or didn’t say or
do or what you could have/should have done. Also, please do not allow my family to
put any guilt on you for any reason just because I was living here at the time. You guys
were great and took much better care of me than they were ever willing to do. Don’t let
them or even yourself place any guilt on you that you should have “seen” or “known”
what I was planning. I purposely was extremely careful not to drop a hint or leave any
information where you could find it and purposely maintained a very normal day to day
life. I am determined and do NOT want to be rescued or saved. I am perfectly content
with my decision. Also, please do NOT allow the hyper religious ones in my circle make
this out to be a thing of the devil or I’m going to hell - - I don’t believe that for a minute.
God knows my heart and understands all the details of my life. They DO NOT!!!
SECOND – You have my profuse gratitude for being exceptional people and amazing
friends! You have always treated me with respect, care and as if I was one of the family.
You’ve done everything you could for me short of giving me the master bedroom and
your wallet <Grins>.
You have been SO very kind in so many ways and SO willing to do everything possible
to help me get back on my feet. I am forever indebted to you for saving my storage unit,
especially the photos, daughter’s school work, etc., that I want to pass onto her.
Over the years and during the time I have been in your home you have invested large
amounts of money in helping me and NEVER once made me feel guilty or as if I owed
you anything in return. You have no idea how freeing and relaxing that has been for
me. You were always so flexible and willing to help in any way. And the cooking is
I am SO VERY, VERY thankful for the peaceful (emotionally not noise level – LOL)
haven you provided for me to just rest from all the craziness and stress of the past few
years while having time to put the photo albums, etc. together for Eileen.
THIRD - My decision was made the day I found out that Peggy had returned my
inheritance property to my brothers. Until that moment in time I had lived through some
horribly difficult and scary times, (without food, nearly homeless and fighting for my
health), struggling to balance making a living while trying to regain my health.
on my worst day I always had hope and found a way to press on.